Last fall as I turned 39 I felt this need to somehow mark 40 with an athletic accomplishment that said I was going into this next decade with enthusiasm, power and strength. I am still young and vital and can accomplish anything I put my mind to. This coming triathlon was the result of my need to do something big for 40. But I am over it.
I am ready to embrace 40. I am ready to be old. Bring on the wrinkles. Bring on the pre-menapausal symptoms, colonoscopy and mamograms. Buy me a pair of cheaters and lets call it a day. I don't need to enter 40 young and vital. I want to enter 40 slow and sluggish. I don't want to be a young mom of a 5 year old, I want to be mistaken for her grandmother. I am over it. Please let me move on. Why am I doing this triathlon? WHY???
Today as I ran 3.1 miles immediately following a 45 minute cycle class those were the thoughts going through my head. Please let me out of this triathlon. My knee hurt most of the 40 minutes and I walked at least half or better of the time. Yet I finished, ran through the digital finish line, and I am still functioning now back at home. So I must be ready. All this training is apparently doing something. In one week I will be flying down to Atlanta and 2 days later it will be over. My training seems to be doing its job so I just need to keep doing what I have been doing for months. I just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other and get the job done.
haha, i can somewhat relate, as i am so OVER training for this thing...it just needs to get here already! i am stressing because it has been so busy this week with the end of school that it has been 2 days in a row with no workout! i have to get motivated this afternoon!!
ReplyDeletei am not ready to roll over and cry uncle though, i have finally re-emerged at 37 and will try to maintain for awhile, but i agree that it sure ain't easy like it used to be!
can't wait to see you next week!